privilege and pain when compared look the same

(Written Friday...yeah know the day when everyone else is at work)


I just got back from watching a matinee of Breaking Dawn, by myself, in my pyjamas.  Does that count as depression?  Haha, I’m not to sure.  I do sort of love the Twilight movies.  I slept in today so I had Root Beer and Popcorn for Breakfast, pathetic.  Oh today.   The older I get, the less I care about what people think of me.  Leave me be, unshowered looking a hot mess with my root beer and popcorn.  Im single, unemployed and just here for the love story, I will look back and laugh one day right?  RIGHT?!?!


All joking aside it was a good day, good movie and I am heading out tonight to plan my trip to Belize with Diandra!  Bright and early tomorrow reno’s proceed.  I have so much blogging and editing to catch up too.  Lots to get accomplished.  Todays p.j. induced day lead me to a plethora of amazing music that should keep me entertained as I finish said tasks.  


Heres a little of what I listening to today:


Who are these “Sleeping at Last” folks?  And HOW have I never heard this music before, I am in awe in these lyrics.  All of them.  Im just going to write out a few bits and pieces so I can remember.


Unmade- 


When we were young
Our words were innocent
Whiter than snow,
Awkward and slow.
Now when we speak,
We risk an avalanche.
But that's not enough now
To reroute our plans.

The aftermath
Is cracked wood where fences stood
And the broken bones of our childhood.

In our trembling fear,
We put words inside God's mouth.
We cover our tracks
And get so proud of ourselves,
We get so proud of ourselves,
We get so proud of ourselves
When we get away.

I believe that we've got it wrong, got it wrong.
We'll realize when it's said and done, said and done,
That in our words we've lost so much more
Than we've ever won.

It's in our nature to complicate,
But in the end it's the casualties
That carry all the weight.


Porcelain-


The door broke when you slammed it shut,
And the cracks kept reaching long after you left.
Through the floorboards, branching towards the hall,
Like vines that never rest...
Climbing like fire through the walls.
A single spark that claims the whole forest -
I know, I know...it's all for the best.
But honestly, I would rather be
Safe from a distance than here...

When I fell to me knees
To sew the damage shut,
I couldn't believe...
A bright, staggering light
Came flooding into me
From out of the seams.

So I reached deeper in
And pulled my whole world wide open,
And for each broken mile, a billion
Miracles happen at once
In everything...in everything.

But I'm safe from a distance, right here.

Everything I love
Was made of porcelain,
Ready to break.
But the bright, staggering light,
It anxiously waits inside.
Like nesting dolls, the secret hides.
And like every birth,
It was a necessary pain...
I know, I know...
It's all worth the wait,
Worth the weight.


Slow and Steady-


You carved our initials
Into these family trees.
But when the branches are bare and broken,
Love is so hard to reach.

We've learned to brace for the worst
And to read the last pages first,
Surrender feels safe.

Maybe the soul is the soil that holds the fallen seed,
Or the light pouring down in between the rain clouds,
Daring life to reach;
Or maybe it's the rings in the trunk of the tree,
A birthmark time will leave
To measure the past.

But we can't dream when we're wide awake
Or fall in love with a heart too strong to break.

Faith is expensive to taste,
And time is borrowed loose change
That's already been spent.

Maybe the soul is the tone of voice
That unearthed the words that we needed...

Maybe the soul is a suitcase that holds the backup plan -
A collection of keys and the patience we need
To start again.
Maybe it's the thresholds that swallow us whole
As we learn to let go,
In spite of the dirt on our clothes


Watermark-


You were carved out of the sea
Watermarked by your ancestry
In a tug of war between the tide and me
What felt like loss was a victory
Cause you were swept ashore like bottles holding prayers

You were carved out of the earth
Safe and sound in your second birth
Gravity has tied your ankle to the shore
As a lighthouse tamed the endless ocean war

Against the calming light our silhouettes are changing shape
The stories you've been told have made you brave

Such inheritance was formed within the sand
Like the shells you gather in the safety of your hands
Dive in with your eyes closed
For the life you were born to claim
And the water will be paralyzed
By the courage you contain
And the flutter of your earnest heart
It will fill the silent seas
And all will be restored in your memory


Birthright- Just bold this whole song haha


She was raised by wolves
in the warmth of their fur
surrounded by fangs
She knew she was secure


Language barriers 
made no difference at all
when your truly cared for
theres no purpose for walls


His fences stood tall
as the shoulders of old
But he dreamt that one day
maybe he’d break the mold


Time shyly stands still
when you watch it unfold
from these ivory towers
freedoms only ghost


Right or wrong
tension makes us stronger
by making us weak
when we needed to be


privilege and pain
when compared look the same
comprehension begins
when we pull back the lens


They made her their queen
on the day she was born
placed on her a crown 
she wasn't ready for
all impossible odds
foreshadow our means
like paving a road 
to kingdoms we've never seen


He woke up one day
written out of the will 
they swore he’d be okay
with lesser shoes to fill


but what doesn't kill us 
makes us stronger they say
our only birthright in this life 
is the breath that we take